Saturday, April 16, 2011


It is very interesting what my thoughts are about food.  I was just thinking about it today and for some reason since my surgery that I did not have hunger but it does seem to be coming back but I don't really want anything.  If we cook at home or go out I just don't really care about food I just want something with good protein that I can get in.  But before the surgery it seems like food was my biggest thing to live for.  If I was bored, sad, happy, even if I was not really hungry I still wanted to eat and it felt good and smelled good and just had to have it,.  Now like I said I could care less and sometime it is hard for me because I don't feel like this is normal.  I hope I am not the only one feeling this way or going thru this.  I am happy and feeling great and that is an awsome thing but when someone ask me what do I want to eat I just say I don't care I will find something to eat or I will have what ever you are having and I just don't feel like when I eat the food that is signal that happened before is happing now it's just food going into my body and feeding it.  I really don't have that one food I really miss or really want.  We even went to Gatlinburg, TN for spring break and before I could not wait to get me some candy from those great candy shops but is year we went thourgh them and they did not have the same effect on me and it was nice but alittle sad to me at the same time.  It is weird because we I tell people this they say to me well isn't this the reason you had the surgery?  Yes but I did not think it would effect me like this either.  I guess I am still learning and have alot more to do on this journey.  For those of you wondering I am down 59lbs now and I will get new pictures up soon.  Until next time keep it going!

Thursday, March 3, 2011

Back to Work and Working Out

So I started back to work on Tuesday and it has been great so happy to be back to work and happy to have such a great group of people that support me during my Journey to a healthier me.  I have also signed up to join a gym with my wonderful hubby.  We have already gone twice this week and we plan on going tomorrow as well.  So far i am taking it slowly with some walking on a treadmill then today we added some weight machines with it.  I feel pretty good a little sore but not to bad.  I look forward to going tomorrow.

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

One Month Pictures

Top Picture is my Before Picture on 01/09/2011 I was at 293.7
Bottom Picture is my current Picture on 02/28/2011 I am at 246.7
Total Weight Loss 47lbs YES!


Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Home Sweet Home

So I have finally made it home after alittle over 2 weeks at the hospital.  They could not really find anything wrong with my new sleeve.  So I was making it hard for my surgeon to help me but each day seemed to get better and better.  Now I am home and doing what I am suppose to.  They even think I will be able to return to work next week I know I am ready but as soon as I get back I bet I will wish I was still out LOL.  I love my job and I know everyone there has been praying for me and misses me.  I miss them too.  It was very nice to be in my own bed and not being interupted every hour on the hour to take my vitals give me medicine etc.  I am very happy also with my weight loss I start out at 293.7 and today I am at 257.7 down 36 lbs.  Can't bet that.  I am hoping to post my one month photos later tonight or tomorrow. 

Friday, February 18, 2011

In the Hosptial

So I have been in the hospital since February 7, 2o11.  On February 5, 2011 I woke up with pain in my chest and my new stomach I was unable to drink or eat anything.  I thought it was just a rough day and decided to wait and see how I was doing the next day so Sunday, February 6, 2011 I still had pain and was not eating or drinking and went to the E.R they could not find anything wrong after a x-ray and a c.t scan everything was negative which was good news but I was still sad because I was still not feeling well and unable to eat or drink.  So Monday, February 7, 2011 I had an appointment with my surgeon regarding these issues so he felt it was necessary  to admit me so I would not get dehydrated and I have been here ever since.  Still waiting to go home they have done another kind of c.t scan, swallowing test, picc line insertion.  And everything shows that I don’t have any leaks or obstruction in my new stomach again good news but sad because they don’t understand why I am unable to keep liquids and food down.  Anyways 12 days later and I am slowly able to keep some things down their goal now it to get me to a place where I can sub stain at home on my own and not have to be readmitted back in the hospital for the same issues.  I am very home sick and can’t wait to get out of here but even then I will have to recoup before I can get back into the normal things in my life.  I can’t wait to get off all of these IV lines and be able to sleep thought the night without someone coming in to wake you up to take vital signs and poke and proud you to check other  things.  So people have asked if I thought I made a mistake having this surgery and my answer is No I am so happy to have done this.  I feel like this is just a bump in the road to my new life and I really want to stay as positive as possible because that will be what really gets me though this.  Until next time Thanks for all my supporters I have enjoyed the cards, balloons, and the people who have come by to see me as well as the ones that have called me.  It means so much to me to see that I have such great people in my life.  Can’t wait to get back to work to see my work family as well they miss me and I miss them.  Thank you to my Vendors that have taken the time to come and see me as well it means so much to me that even though I don’t get you much business you still care about me on another level.  Love you all.

Monday, January 31, 2011

Day 11: A New Week

So I went to the doctors for my follow up on January 28, 2011 and everything went well.  I am healing properly and am ready to move on to pureed/soft foods.  I have itching around my wound area which is normal and just waiting to see the bandages fall off.  I am able to start working out so I am going to start with walking and doing some biking.  I am also going to take this week to rest up before I go back to work next week.  The foods I am starting to try are refried beans, bananas, canned tuna, light mayo, mashed potatoes.  I will be adding new foods every day to get a variety of foods.  I have to start with my protein first and then I can have veggies and fruits.  I make sure to take my vitamins and supplement everyday as well.  I need to try to get more water in.  I have started getting heartburn the last 2 days and it has made my nights and days rough so I called the doctor to see what they would like for me to do.  I have taken some Tums but with no relief.  So we will wait and see what they say.  I currently have lost 28 lbs since starting this journey back on January 6, 2011.  I am so pleased with the results.  I look forward to seeing where this journey takes me.  My family is so proud of me and is happy to see the changes that are happening already.  I love each and every one of my supporters.  Till next time!  

Monday, January 24, 2011


Well each day seems to get a little bit better.  Let me go back to last night however.  It was my sons 7th birthday and we went to one of my favorite places an all you can eat pizza buffet.  I did not get anything there I brought with me my Jell-O, Yogurt and some water.  It was funny while sitting there enjoying everyone's company that the food around me didn't even bother me one bit.  I eat my Jell-o and drank my water and tried to get some of my yogurt down but was not that hungry anyways.  I enjoyed my family and watched a little boy enjoy his birthday great memories.  Today I woke up feeling pretty good and got down a 11oz protein shake in 2 hours man did I feel like my stomach was full took my vitmain and mineral supplement and worked on some water.  Tried to drink some soup for lunch but after that my tummy felt sick all day had a hard time getting that to pass.  We took the kids tonight to the skating rink and I walked around and watched the skate.  Travis says mommy when you get skinny you will be able to come skating with me I just smiled and inside I thought yes yes I can.  I brings me such joy to think of all the things I am going to be able to do with my kids and enjoy life instead of sleeping my life away.  I want for me, Trisha, and my Mom to go shopping in July just the 3 of us and make it a girls day out.  I have so many things that I want to start doing with my family.  This pain is just the beginning to my new life.  I am still very tired, sore and feeling a bit itckey but I hope for all this to pass here soon and I know my body will still be healing well after that so I will have to take it easy for a while.  But it is hard when your mind is so ready to move forward.  I really am happy that I have such a great support group surounding me.  I love each and everyone of you!